You name it!

There are a lot of things I want to let it all out of my brains right now. I am on fire, not literally. duh
I have this a lot of extra care, energy, and passion that I usually spend (waste) on my lousy relationship.

I have 1 main job, 2 side jobs.
If you are one of my loyal blog readers you will know how I have a small (but I'm very proud of it) creative house, named MONOKROM. Read the story here.
And I just launched my (accessories) online shop last December and it's been doing (surprisingly) very well. (thanks to my very supportive colleagues, friends, and family <3 )

I am such a hard-working girl right? lols
Play hard, work harder! After all, we are on our own. Don't take this wrong, but our parents or whoever you depend on, aren't going to live forever. So you have to learn how to be an independent creature; you will surprise yourself; you are much much stronger and better than you ever imagine.

I am addicted to this feeling, when I finally get something that I really wanted for a long time with my own money that I earn myself.

I feel like..


Money was never the reason behind my working-hard attitude. I KINDA HAVE THIS LOVE-HATE RELATIONSHIP WITH MONEY. okay? I NEED MONEY LAH OF COURSE but I DON'T WORK FOR MONEY, but if you want to give me your money I WILL TAKE IT. LOL LOL.

My Mother always tells me and reminds me about how being lazy will be the obstruction of my own "upgrading" process, me upgrading as a human being, as a daughter, as a graphic designer ; simply at any kind of progress. It makes you stuck! And as a human being you have to step forwards, not standing steadily at your current position, or even worse, backwards.

That is why I HATE LAZY PEOPLE, especially when their laziness AFFECTS other people in a BAD BAD WAY! You want to go die then die yourself lah don't take me witchu!!! PI LO! (Thanks WH to teach me this, it means "KENTUT LAH...")

And I also cannot understand and WILL NEVER be understood how an extremely talented person, abandon their gift just because they are too lazy to upgrading themselves. FUCK YOU.  I hope your talent(s) disappeared rapidly and transferred too me. *evillaugh*

Do you know why I work so hard?
Because I know I am not really that talented in graphic design compares to MANY people out there. I oftenly struggle with the designing process which means I need more TIMES. So.. If I want to keep up with others.. I have to work harder due to my lack of talents; I don't have any other choices. And I don't want to have any regrets, cause having regrets feels like you shit in your pants at your holy matrimony.

And.. I love how my Mom told me once...
"You know Dewi, everything that you have right now, your sight, your hearing, your hands, your hair, your breath.. Your bag, your money... Are not really yours, God let you borrow them. So when God took some of these from you, you don't have to be angry because He just takes what's belong to Him."

It keeps me back down to earth every time I started acting like a cocky bitch.

SO START GIVING YOUR BEST BEFORE (YOUR) GOD(s) TAKES BACK YOUR TALENT(s) OKAY!!!! :) :)

In case you miss me, here is the newest pic of me:

BABY DOM SO CUTE, oh my God!!!!

Love,

D

Remembering TwentyTwelve

"I once had a dream of becoming a beautiful poet, but upon an unfortunate series of events, some of those dreams dashed and divided like a million stars in the night sky that I wished on over and over again, sparkling and.. broken. But I didn't really mind because I knew that it takes getting everything you ever wanted.. and then losing it, to know what true freedom is."
- Ride by Lana Del Rey

Is it a little too late to do this post? Muahaha sorry but I was very excited about BLACKTREE SHOP things and decided to do a post about 2012 later~ so here it is..

I may say that 2012 was the year when I hit the 180 degrees.

2012 started quite awesome, but I was in so much fear and pain. I was taken but I wasn't happy. I sacrificed so much yet it seems like it was never enough. Then things went pretty ugly and I can say that I hit the lowest point in my life; I feel like I was not worth it because it seems like everyone were giving up on me.

But then it took only just a little time and much support and love from my family and true super mega bestfriends to make me realize that the reason they gave up on me was just simply because I am too fucking awesome; no one can handle me. People choose to believe in things they want to believe in and I believe that it was them who isn't worth what they have cost me. :)

You may puke now. lol lol

You won't believe my awesomeness okay? I tell you lah you won't even believe me!! XD
You may think that I was just joking!

2012 was the year where one of my dreams achieved and two of them shattered to pieces, like they even weren't really there, like they have never been existed.

I have learnt and understood so many both good and bad things..
I learned that being at the lowest point in your life is actually a good thing because you don't have any way out but up.
I found bliss in every obstacle I faced,
I meet new wonderful people who are so inspiring; many of them are an expert in their field yet they are so down to earth it makes me respect them even more.
I have learned how you never really stop loving someone, you just learn how to move on with your life without them, because you either never did love them or you always will.

In 2013 I hope that I can continue the good progress I have been making, I feel like I am more contained, patient, and careless; I am at a better place :)

Wishing you guys a year full of happiness, laugh, and much more of awesomeness!!
STAY HAPPY AND HEALTHY. OH YEAH.

New Beginning: BLACKTREE SHOP!

I have always love accessories; necklaces, rings, earring, and now I am in love with the edgy brooches.
I am not really into fashion world though, I wear things that comfortable and looks good on me, I can say that I never really follow the fashion trend leh.

I saw something at the store, think it's cute then I buy. Lol lol lol And most of my outfits are either black or gray. I LOVE BLACK cause it makes me look skinnier. MUAHHAHAHA. I love wearing loose T-shirt and black legging with a pair of Converse shoes and BOOM, I feel like I am KStew. :p

Then my co-worker at M360 "introduce" me to this awesome accessories supplier and I have this immediate thought of how this could turn into a good business. So there it goes, I currently "launched" my online shop named Blacktree Shop, focusing only on selling unique and edgy accessories. Me, myself picked all the items that I am selling. I decided to use the pre-order system, to be honest because I won't need any funds. Yeah, it takes much longer (10-14days) till the items arrived at my door, but it's all worth waiting for (I guess :p)

Officially opened on 21st December 2012 :)

My goal of opening Blacktree Shop is to let my fellow women whose addicted to accessories fulfill their needs without making them broke. LOL LOL. It was not because of money, because in my point of view, every business that pure based on money/ money-oriented is soulless and.. Lame. Of course you want some profits leh, I want it too, it's just a basic thing in business, but when your main goal is to get a very high profit so you do something unethical that harms other people, then.. Shame on you!

These are some pieces that I am selling (My Favorites!) :

Snow Flakes brooch to brighten up your collar :)

My fav! Bought this one for myself

SO CUTE RIGHT?!

One of the Best Seller items!

Too see the complete collection, go to our Facebook Page: BLACKTREE SHOP and follow our Twitter: @BlacktreeShop to get special promos and free giveaway!

GOODLUCK, LOVE! 

xx,

DW