A fool and a Tough one.

I always believe that basically, people are kind, but I should never forget on how mean and cruel human being can be sometimes. I had this thought; Why do people that I believe will never hurt me, always ended up being the ones who hurt me the most? Because I let them, I gave them a chance to hurt me. I was too naive to have this thought on how they will never ever hurt me but they just proved me wrong, they always reminded me on how I should never trust people that easily, a real prove on how kind and honest human being have been decreasing from time to time.

There was an ugly matter happened to me few days ago, it taught me a lot of things.
How I should never abandon what my brain says, rather than listening only to what my stupid-naive heart says.
How I should never lower down my guard to people who don't deserve it.
How I should respect myself more, value myself rightly.
I was a fool. I admit that.
Time to get on a higher level, wie!

People have reasons behind every mistake they did, oh hell yes they do.
But it doesn't mean its okay to make mistake, especially when you could hurt someone else's feelings.
What an ignorant bastard of you, to think it is okay to hurt people's feelings just because you "have your reasons"???
If I had my reasons to stab you in the eyes, does that mean it is okay to do so??? enggak kan?

Hating people is exhausting. It really is.. That's why I decided to stop give a fuck about those people who don't even deserve my care.
Sometimes, it is easier to just forgive and forget people's mistake, because what they did is too hurtful.
But I can't just forget what people have done to me. NEVER. I might forgive them but I will never forget. I'm not planning on any revenge or getting even, I believe karma will bite them back and if I was lucky enough, God will let me see how they taste their own medicine.

Love is kind... It's true. When you got hurt by someone and you forgive them instead; you bring out the best in you and you are not mad at them however, you tried to understand their reasons on why they hurt you. You accept it sincerely and you wish them the best, you wish that they will never be treated just like the way they treated you... That's simply.. awesome right? :)

The difference between a fool and a tough people is.. a fool will understand and give you another chance, tough people will understand and will never give you a chance to hurt them ever again.

I made mistakes and I learned from them.
I have been hurt but I'm alive.
I forgive and I never forget.

I am now on a new higher level and stronger than ever. BRING IT ON! seriously.

Hey anyway~
These are a bunch of photo of Audric and me cam-whoring. HE IS DAMN CUTE I WANT HIM TO BE MY NEW BOYFRIEND, which is impossible cause I'm 19 years old older than him. Muahahaha.

Don't you just love him?? Audric is so smart, he speaks 3 languages! Chinese, English, and of course Bahasa Indonesia. I have to learn speak and write in Chinese too. Immediately. 

Now I feel.. happy and carefree. Life seems to be more delightful, no more serious worries~

I am happy, you should be happy too! :)

"Tough times never last, but tough people do" -
Dr. Robert Schuller.

Love,

D.W

Beautiful Nightmare

2 days ago she wrote this on her notes:

"This is much much harder than I thought it would be; our relationship. I thought I was ready to jump back into a relationship, but I was wrong. I love you, but I love myself more. I am not happy and I want to be happy.. You should be (happy) too, therefore I'm letting you go so you could be with someone who wants to be with you, as much as you do."

But she deleted it, why? Because she thinks that, what kind of a selfish-bastard she is if she sent that to her less-than-one-month-boyfriend. So she promises herself she would do her best to love this man.

How could 2 human beings who were in love grew apart so fast, so obvious like them?

The man feels the same but he directly decided to let her go, as he realizes he is still in love with his ex-lover. He doesn't care if that means he is such an asshole.

He was someone so important, so special to her; she wants him to be part of her life, period. Cause she was tired of losing people she loves truly.

But then she sees how amazingly, easily, perfectly this man proves her WRONG. He is not worth it, at all.

He was just like a beautiful nightmare to her, he wasn't real. When she wakes up in the morning, he's gone, and she's glad that he did.

"Cause the love that you lost, wasn't worth what it cost, and in time you'll be glad its gone." 

Finally, she is free. And happy.


P.S : this story might be true, might be as bullshit as this man is. LOLS.

Funny People

Is it me or it's true that people are getting much much funnier these days??

I know these bunch of people who are literally loathe each other but they still hang out together. When the other is not around, the other ones talk behind his back, and vice versa. GROW UP, aren't you tired to be pretending all the fucking time?

Life is hard, sweetypie, don't make it any harder yourself. If you don't like someone just because you simply don't like them then don't pretend that you like them and be nice when they around and bitchy when they're not, that is simply annoying and low. LOW.

I know that some how we just don't get along with certain kind of people, we do have rights to make a choice about whom we want to make friends with and whom we choose to not to. BE REAL, that makes things easier and simpler.

Being nice to people we don't like is not being a hypocrite, it's about MANNER.
But pretending to "like" the people we don't like and talk shitty things behind their back is what society calls being a hypocrite.

Are you a hypocrite?
I am. sometimes. not all the time. oh we all do.

 

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JULY's Playlist!!

I currently listen to Lana Del Rey and LeeSsang now. LOVE THEM.

Lana Del Rey - Born to Die
" lost but now I am found.."

Lana Del Rey - Blue Jeans
-all the fucking lyrics!-

Leona Lewis ft. One Republic - Lost Then Found
"why do we say things we cant take back? and why do we miss what we never had?"

Katy Perry - Wide Awake
"I wish I knew then, what I know now. Wouldn't dive in, wouldn't bow down.."

Foster The People - Houdini

Sunday Girl - Love U More

LeeSsang ft Jung In - The Girl Who Can't Break Up and The Guy Who Can't Leave
"understanding each other in our sleepless night, my dreams become your future.."

LeeSsang ft Jung In - LesSang Blues

Kelly Clarkson - Dark Side
" Nobody's a picture perfect, but we're worth it, you know that we're worth it. Will you love me? Even with my dark side?"

and the entire songs from Asura Balbalta :D

I hope this month, things would become much better.
June was a little bit disaster to me cause I paid a lot of money to repair my onyx and now it's DEAD.
I had to buy a new phone and it cost me a fortune T-T.
Oh Lord bless me. and my financial.

Love,

D.W