Fully Loaded part 2

"Love happens to you. To us. And sometimes, just sometimes, it happens without you knowing.

And when you do realize it, things have become just a little bit too late." -  D

When people put me in a position where I have to defend myself, I choose to keep quite. They are trying to put me down, well it  is not gonna work, I am telling you. Why? Because I know my own values and I don't think my words would prove them wrong : my actions will.

I am not overly confident or what lah~  I am maybe young and just (almost) 22 years old, but I survived many hellholes and I've gone through a lot things that a regular 22 wouldn't get through. I worked my ass off to get to where I am now, I am not just some "lucky" girl. I deserve things that I have at this moment, cause I earned it myself. I have the choice for not being an independent person and depend on my parents rather than working this hard to earn a living. But hey, I am a born fighter. :)

I am exhausted: both physically and mentally. People asking me why I work so hard, is it because of money? No, it isn't. Money comes and goes.. we know that. It is simply because that's who I am. I do what I do based on my qualities, not because I am such a workaholic I guess, though I am addicted to my job.. or because anything or anyone else. This is me, I take things seriously, especially for something that I get paid for: I will make sure that I am worth every penny, people spent on me.

Last week has been one of the most toughest weeks in my whole life and what made it even worse is I don't have my tranquilizer. People take advantage of me, people disrespect me, they tried to put me down, stupid clients threw tantrums at me, but still what hurt me the most is your absence. Sorry, I can't let you stay, do you know that I am trying to save what we have?

Love,
D

Remembering TwentyTwelve

"I once had a dream of becoming a beautiful poet, but upon an unfortunate series of events, some of those dreams dashed and divided like a million stars in the night sky that I wished on over and over again, sparkling and.. broken. But I didn't really mind because I knew that it takes getting everything you ever wanted.. and then losing it, to know what true freedom is."
- Ride by Lana Del Rey

Is it a little too late to do this post? Muahaha sorry but I was very excited about BLACKTREE SHOP things and decided to do a post about 2012 later~ so here it is..

I may say that 2012 was the year when I hit the 180 degrees.

2012 started quite awesome, but I was in so much fear and pain. I was taken but I wasn't happy. I sacrificed so much yet it seems like it was never enough. Then things went pretty ugly and I can say that I hit the lowest point in my life; I feel like I was not worth it because it seems like everyone were giving up on me.

But then it took only just a little time and much support and love from my family and true super mega bestfriends to make me realize that the reason they gave up on me was just simply because I am too fucking awesome; no one can handle me. People choose to believe in things they want to believe in and I believe that it was them who isn't worth what they have cost me. :)

You may puke now. lol lol

You won't believe my awesomeness okay? I tell you lah you won't even believe me!! XD
You may think that I was just joking!

2012 was the year where one of my dreams achieved and two of them shattered to pieces, like they even weren't really there, like they have never been existed.

I have learnt and understood so many both good and bad things..
I learned that being at the lowest point in your life is actually a good thing because you don't have any way out but up.
I found bliss in every obstacle I faced,
I meet new wonderful people who are so inspiring; many of them are an expert in their field yet they are so down to earth it makes me respect them even more.
I have learned how you never really stop loving someone, you just learn how to move on with your life without them, because you either never did love them or you always will.

In 2013 I hope that I can continue the good progress I have been making, I feel like I am more contained, patient, and careless; I am at a better place :)

Wishing you guys a year full of happiness, laugh, and much more of awesomeness!!
STAY HAPPY AND HEALTHY. OH YEAH.

My Thing.

"Every now and then, the stars align. Boy and girl meet by the great design. Could it be that you and me, are the lucky ones?" - Lucky Ones, Lana Del Rey

Ratna, Miranti, and I went for a very late supper few days ago. While we were waiting for their food to come (I hardly refused to eat but they decided that I HAVE to eat as well) ,we had a little chat about love, which frankly speaking, I had enough of, and I just figured out my thing.

Miranti and Ratna have the same way of "choosing" what kind of male they want to be their man, while I kind of.. the opposite way. I could say that they are picky, WHICH IS GOOD. I mean, we even try to put on the shoes that we like and try to walk on it, before we make a purchase. We double check the leather, the stitches, and the color etc, making sure they are perfect, so why wouldn't we be EXTRA picky about something so intimate and important like "choosing a lover"?

I have to admit that I have never been so picky as a woman, NOT EVEN ONCE. It's not that I want to be in a relationship SO BADLY, but it is more like me being so grateful that someone whom I love, loves me back. And I believe I have to be more picky about choosing someone to love from now on. lols.

I used to think that "why would a guy likes a girl like me? ME?? GAK ADA CEWEK LAIN APAH?". But hey, people have been telling me that I am pretty (by people i mean my parents, sister, and close friends. LOLS) and I always give my best, pretty much at every aspects in my life, so yeah, I think my thing is that I AM SO GOOD AT LOVING PEOPLE. *blushing*

Enough with the shitty thing called love, IM OUTTA HEREE.

Love, uh i mean, CHEERS!! :D

DW

Hallo-ween.

"I called it a quit because, loving someone who does not love you as much as you do love them is fucking exhausting. I did not give up but I have reached the point where I have to let it go, because it brought the worst in me." -DW


Happy Eid Ul-Adha for those who celebrate it and HAPPY HALLOWEEN! :3

HAPPY HALLOWEEN

I never celebrate halloween in my whole life. WHY? because it is not part of my culture and from my POV, (most of them) girls are abusing Halloween for dressing like a slut. Halloween suppose to be creepy, right? Not to make the men horny. LOLS. But if I had such a hot and sexy body I would wear those sexy tiny little outfits too. >:)

This year Halloween or October 31st 2012 is my last day in OMC. Yes, I quit my job, I feel like it is time for me to get out from my comfort zone. I would like to meet new people and go to the new places. So, I started to looking for a new job 3 weeks ago. I sent my CV and portfolio to precisely 6 agencies on the first day and to other 11 agencies on the next day. Got only 3 interview invitations in total, to be honest I FELT HOPELESS.

But there was this one company that caught my eyes on them. Their vacancy ads was soo creative and different from the others. And the company was in my number one list! They called me the next day after I sent my application and invited me for an interview. I WAS SOOO HAPPY AND EXCITED! XD. 3 days after the interview they sent me the offer to be their Associate Art Director, when they were originally seek for a Senior Graphic Designer. Feel fucking awesome when people really appreciate your work and your talent. So I accepted their offer and I feel blessed! 0:)

I hope that I won't disappoint them :p
yeayyyy! Hope everything runs smoothly!

I love my co-workers at OMC. They are already like a family to me.. Would like to thank them all for the warm and great hospitality during my stay there. I am sad that I have to leave them, but hey, a goodbye is just another new Hello, right? :)

"who seeks shall find." - Sophocles.


Love,

DW

BLACK JACK.

"Aku.. aku sekarang umur 21 loh"
"terus gueh harus bilang WOW sambil koprol gituh?"

Goodbye twenty, hello twenty first!!! 
Cheers to more awesomeness and wrinkles to come...!!!

I would like to thank God, for all His blessing and love. I want to be a person who's always be grateful, down to earth, kind, full of patience and love, forgiving, wise, mature, strong, and more importantly be that person who always fear GOD and obey His words.

I want to be that passionate young woman who give her 100% in everything she does in her life, I want to be a good graphic designer whose never tired of learning and growing, I want to be a successful business woman whose able to make her parents proud and repay all the kindness, love, and care that they have been giving her for the past twenty one years.. I want to be able to eat as much as I want and won't get fat at all, because my love for good foods is as big as the sun. ;p

I want to be the blessed one who inspires other people. I want to be a very good friend whose always there for all my best friends when they need me. And above all, I want to be a person with great strength in dealing with any kind of obstacles along my way and always have faith that things will be (eventually) okay! :) AMEN TO ALL THESE WORDS.

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Tahun lalu mungkin adalah ultah TERBURUK, bahkan lebih buruk dari ultah Sweet Seventeen gue dimana gue baru pindah ke Singapore, jauh dari orang tua dan orang-orang yang gue sayang. Tahun lalu bahkan bokap gue sendiri enggak ngucapin ultah ke gue. Dan orang yang gue sayang kagak nyiapin apa-apa buat gue, sedangkan pas dia ultah gue ngumpulin gaji gue buat beliin dia jam tangan yang dia mau. Love sucks, huh? engga sih, Dia yang sucks.

Tapi ulang tahun gue yang tahun ini, probably was the BEST BIRTHDAY EVER!
I feel loved and it feels fuckin good to be loved!!! :D

Jadiii... di usia 21 ini, gue memang merasa gue lebih dewasa, lebih bisa nahan emosi, walaupun kemarin ini sempet melakukan hal-hal yang super bodoh!! hahahaha. Pas tanggal 3, dimana gue resmi bisa mabok-mabokan, gue kerja seperti biasa. Enggak ngeluh seperti tahun-tahun sebelumnya where I demanded a day off on my birthday. childish banget yah?? ITCCHHHHHH. *kibas rambut*

Pas jam 12 malemnya my lovely mom and my jelly surprised me with a lovely birthday cake while I was working on Monokrom's projects. Padahal sebelomnya mama gue bilang "Dew.. tahun ini mamah gak beliin kueh yahhh.. bosen gitu-gitu ajahhhhh."

MY WISH: semoga gue cepet kaya dan bisa banggain mamipapihhh :*

Terus sorenya gue naek taksi macet2 ke Kelapa Gading karena Didi bilang sama gue ada meeting sama client. To be honest sempet kepikiran sih, masa gue lagi ulang tahun gak ada apa-apa sama sekali, malah kerja. Tapi ya udah juga sih, taon depan juga ulang tahun lagi. HAHAHAHAHA.

LALU LALU... AKU... AKU DI SURPRISE-IN!

Ternyata Didi, Dodo, Ratna, Chenky, bersekongkol bikin gue nunggu di mol SEJEM, setelah gue macet-macetan kesanahhh. Bilangnya mereka kejebak macet, padahal udah di MKG juga. Mereka beliin gue Kue coklat super yummy di Manon dan belinn gue kado tas Zara yang cocok banget sama kepribadian gueh : PREMAN PETOJO. Terus, Antie sempet2in dateng padahal dia belomm fitt! Gue baru tau dia sakit maag akut D: GET WELL SOON ANTIE SAYANG :*

Thank you banget loh semuanyaaa!!! Buat Ratna, my sweet best friend, I love you full. I learn how to be a good person and good friend from you, na. Buat Antie yang udah bela2in datengg makasih sayang. Buat didi, dodo, chenky.. maacih udh suprisein akuhhh. Buat Dian si cadel lucuuu, terus Ivonne cantikss yang baru menjejakan kakinya di dunia profesional grafik desain *TSAAHHH* dan for the last but not least, Tiara! Si kecil yang innocent and super honest. Thank you guys, kalian bikin ulang tahun gue kali ini LEBIH BERARTI dari tahun2 sebelumnya. :D

Makasih juga buat NINA BURHAN! Veina sayang, Rika dan Lala yang kasih gue ban pinggang Zara yang sama persis kayak tas yang dikasih dari temen2 kuliah gue. hahahahahaha
Dan terima kasih buat semuanya yang udah wishing me a happy birthday. :)

KECUP BASAH SEMUAHNYA. MUACH. :* :* :*

HAPPY BDAY DEWI CANTIK. :D

I love being 21, single, and I have some goodnews that I will reveal soon.

GOD is GOOD!!!! 

Love,

DW

The Naked Truth

The truth is.. losing you has taught me so many things, it changed me to be the person I have always wanted to be. I am sorry that I wasn't good enough for you to stay and fight for the things and hopes we believed in. I am sorry that I wasn't able to be someone you expected me to be, I am terribly sorry.

The truth is.. I will always embracing our memories together, it brings the warmth back to my heart. I wish you happiness, prosperity, and all the goodness in life. And don't forget that baby you are one of a kind.  I wasn't ready to say goodbye but here I am, finding myself much much happier, stronger, more contained than ever when I was still with you. 

Lets live happily, but separately. 

To fall in love and to be broken hearted.

To forgive and to forget.

To remember and to let go.

To learn and to understand.

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Oh enough the melodramatic SHITs.. LOLS. Do you miss me?? ahahaha

I cut my hair recently! I just came to the hair salon and was thinking "I'm cutting all these bitches off! "

And the funny thing is the hair dresser thought that I was a Japanese. and here's our conversation before he cut my hair.

HD : Kamu... Orang jepang yah??

ME :  Saya.. orang jakarta mas.

HD : ALHAMDULILAH YRA. *lega*

And here I am with my new hair do:

What do you think???? And here is me with the long long hair...

Which one do you think is better for me? I love my long hair but I HATE BLOW DRYING IT.

It took SO LONG for my long hair to dry. hahaha so I CUT IT OFF. muwahahahahaha

I love my new hair though! :)

"when there's a will, there's a way!"

Love,

DW

FAB LANE.

Udah lama banget nitch ga ngeblog pake bahasa nenek moyang.
Lega banget rasanya jari2 tambun ini nari2 diatas keyboard tanpa harus bolak - balik ke Google Translate atau sekedar ngecek grammar di Google, dan Oxford Pocket Dictionary butut gue.

Tapi kadang-kadang kalo jiwa kebulean gue lagi keluar, gue lebih nyaman ngeblog pake bahasa inggeris. *kibas rambut*

Pernah gak lo berasa super cape, tapi lo ga bisa tidur ?
Dan itu bikin lo pengen nangis kejer buat luapin semua kecapean lo? Bengong dikit, mata berair. Lengah dikit, tau-tau lo lagi bengong. *bengongception*

Hidup gue sekarang semacam perempuan gila kerja. Apalagi sejak Monokrom resmi jalan dan bikin gue otomatis jadi Art Director di 2 design agencies sekaligus. Bangga? Tentunya. Cape? BANGET. Abis selesai ngantor di Cideng, gue masih harus ke PIK, seminggu 3x kesana. Dan kalo gue ga ke PIK, gue bawa pulang kerjaan ke rumah, pulang ngantor tidur bentar, lanjut kerja lagi. Nge-date? Boro-boro, gue sering banget malem mingguan sama laptop, terus pulang ke rumah bercumbu sama ranjang gue.

Semuanya gue jalanin dengan ikhlas, gue seneng dikasih kepercayaan sama Tuhan buat punya 2 tanggung jawab yang berbeda, artinya Tuhan taulah kalo gue mampu. Banyak yang mau cari kerjaan susah banget, ini gue malah ada 2. Harusnya gue seneng, ya kan?

Tapi ada titik dimana gue super duper merasa minder dan gak percaya diri bahwa gue mampu ngejalanin ini semua. Gue pernah ada kepikiran pengen mundur dari either Octis atau Monokrom karena gue takut banget ngecewain orang dan gue ga bisa ngasih apa yang mereka harepin dari gue. Tapi gue ga mau nyerah gitu aja, i am a fighter and i refuse to be a quitter.

Bukan berarti gue benci sama kerjaan gue, gue cinta banget sama kerjaan gue. Gue bisa liat diri gue sampe 40 tahun ke depan tetep bergelut di bidang graphic design tanpa bosen sedikit pun, I feel like I was born to be an awesome graphic designer. Tapi yah gitu... gue suka lost my grip dan gue bisa berubah dalam sekejap dari dewi yang kuat ke dewi yang super manja ples cengeng. -____-"

Untungnya gue punya nyokap yang bener-bener bisa jadi pelipur lara gue *halah*
Dipeluk dia, semua rasa khawatir, ketakutan akan masa depan, bayangan masa lalu, semuanya pupus dalam sekejap~ She must be some kind of a fairy godmother or sumthin. She is truly magical...

ANYWAY~
Blog gue udah sampe 3600views.. walopun gue jarang ngeblog dan bru setaonan ini aktif ngeblog, gue cuma mau bilang thank you for reading my blog! dan semoga lo ga bosen2 mampir di blog gue hehehe.

All is well.

Love,

Dewi

Swagger

They say life is all about choices, well it is true.

I usually went with the flow, I let myself drowning into my imagination, about how things would be as good as I thought it would be. But now I choose to wait and see, if it's meant to be, it's meant to be, right? So there's no need to be hurry.

For the last 4 years I have always put someone else's happiness above mine and I was not truly happy, it didn't make me a better person, but I became someone else; it changed me. I finally can see it, we don't really need someone else to be happy, do we?

Now I am on my own and my life has never been this carefree and delightful before. I feel.. normal again because I am currently not in love with anyone nor have hatred towards someone, this feels fucking good! If I could only stay like this forever~ muahahahaha

Do you know why I could feel this good? because I finally realize that I can actually choose what kind of reaction or impact I want to apply upon myself, regarding the obstacles I am facing and I refuse to be sad, because I know I have a lot of other things to be happy about! My career is doing awesome, my business's growing faster than I could ever imagine, and I have the true friends who always been there for me, and much more to come, I believe! :D

What does not kill you, will only makes you a fighter, does it?
and then I am a blessed fighter.

Anyway, it's August already!
I am going to get through these remaining months of 2012 with SWAG.
I am going to let you see my awesomeness, this video below will probably my first and my last. and I probably will regret this later.. but what the heck, lets live with no limits! hahahahahaha
 

Bitches aint shit and they aint say nothing~ muahahahahahahhahahaa
Did you enjoy my stupidity? I hope you do, cause I do :D

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AUGUST'S PLAYLIST

Dynamic Duo - Guilty
"I'm the one who is guilty. It is all my fault, as i am the convict."

Nicki Minaj - Beez in the Trap (ohh yeahhhhh!!! muahahaha)
" a hundred motherfuckers can't tell me nothing."

Natalia Kills - Heaven
" cause i miss you everyday like they took summer away, like they took colors away, and this grey needs to get the hell way out of me."

The Wanted - Glad you came
" the sun goes down, the stars come out, and all that counts is here and now, my universe would never be the same, i'm glad you came"

Demi Lovato - Fix a Heart
" I tried to sever ties and I ended up with wounds to bind, like you're pouring salt in my cuts."

Ellie Goulding - Light
"I had a heart then but the queen has been over thrown"

Michelle Branch - Breathe
"If I just breathe, let it fill the space between, I'll know everything is alright."

Demi Lovato - Give your heart a break

"After all, you are on your own."


Love,


DW.

A fool and a Tough one.

I always believe that basically, people are kind, but I should never forget on how mean and cruel human being can be sometimes. I had this thought; Why do people that I believe will never hurt me, always ended up being the ones who hurt me the most? Because I let them, I gave them a chance to hurt me. I was too naive to have this thought on how they will never ever hurt me but they just proved me wrong, they always reminded me on how I should never trust people that easily, a real prove on how kind and honest human being have been decreasing from time to time.

There was an ugly matter happened to me few days ago, it taught me a lot of things.
How I should never abandon what my brain says, rather than listening only to what my stupid-naive heart says.
How I should never lower down my guard to people who don't deserve it.
How I should respect myself more, value myself rightly.
I was a fool. I admit that.
Time to get on a higher level, wie!

People have reasons behind every mistake they did, oh hell yes they do.
But it doesn't mean its okay to make mistake, especially when you could hurt someone else's feelings.
What an ignorant bastard of you, to think it is okay to hurt people's feelings just because you "have your reasons"???
If I had my reasons to stab you in the eyes, does that mean it is okay to do so??? enggak kan?

Hating people is exhausting. It really is.. That's why I decided to stop give a fuck about those people who don't even deserve my care.
Sometimes, it is easier to just forgive and forget people's mistake, because what they did is too hurtful.
But I can't just forget what people have done to me. NEVER. I might forgive them but I will never forget. I'm not planning on any revenge or getting even, I believe karma will bite them back and if I was lucky enough, God will let me see how they taste their own medicine.

Love is kind... It's true. When you got hurt by someone and you forgive them instead; you bring out the best in you and you are not mad at them however, you tried to understand their reasons on why they hurt you. You accept it sincerely and you wish them the best, you wish that they will never be treated just like the way they treated you... That's simply.. awesome right? :)

The difference between a fool and a tough people is.. a fool will understand and give you another chance, tough people will understand and will never give you a chance to hurt them ever again.

I made mistakes and I learned from them.
I have been hurt but I'm alive.
I forgive and I never forget.

I am now on a new higher level and stronger than ever. BRING IT ON! seriously.

Hey anyway~
These are a bunch of photo of Audric and me cam-whoring. HE IS DAMN CUTE I WANT HIM TO BE MY NEW BOYFRIEND, which is impossible cause I'm 19 years old older than him. Muahahaha.

Don't you just love him?? Audric is so smart, he speaks 3 languages! Chinese, English, and of course Bahasa Indonesia. I have to learn speak and write in Chinese too. Immediately. 

Now I feel.. happy and carefree. Life seems to be more delightful, no more serious worries~

I am happy, you should be happy too! :)

"Tough times never last, but tough people do" -
Dr. Robert Schuller.

Love,

D.W

The Fighters

I am a fighter. I choose to be one.

I fight for my rights, for things that I believe in, and most importantly I fight for my dreams, to make it happens, to make it not only just a dream. I am fearless, I must be; because I am strong enough; because being strong was the only choice I have, in order to stay awake.

God loves me so much that He gives me His blessing abundantly, that He finally granted my wish, a wish that I have been dreaming of since I was just a little girl. He sees my efforts and I am rewarded. :)

And I am not the only blessed fighter:

The Founders of Monokrom Creative House :)

Those are bunch of the great fighters I have ever meet in my whole life! I would like to thank these people who took the important and crucial role in the making of Monokrom Creative House. And thank you guys for making my dream come true! :3 Specially to TR and RH who were work harder than the rest of us. I have a main job in Octis and DE currently living in Pekanbaru, so we couldn't do anything much. SORRY GUYS, I LOVE YOU TO DEATH. ♥♥♥

Monokrom was founded around this mid- April and we are officially open for business last Monday (18/6/2012). Monokrom Creative House provides the good quality design services such as Logo & Stationery Design, Company Profile Design, Brochure Design, Printed Advertising, Website Design, you name it and we will give you our best :)

For further information you can email us at monokrom.team@gmail.com or visit our Facebook Page, Monokrom Creative House and our twitter page @monokromCH.

YEAYYY :D

My Supportive Family! :)

TR's niece, Audric! so cute right?

Audric's big brother, Aurel :)

The Fighters!

And the great adventure has just begun! :D

Love,

DW

The Free Fall

When you admire someone, you want them to feel comfortable whenever you are around them. You make sure that they won't feel distracted by your presence, your nonsense, and your imperfections, so you hide your stupidity cause you're afraid you're going to scare them away. You just want them to feel the same way as you do.

When you respect someone, you look up to them, you want to be just like them one day. Everything they do inspires you and prove that all this time you have got the wrong idea about something: they change the way you think.

Remember how respect is earned, not given. It is not something that fall from the sky, freely.

When you truly care about someone, you want the best for them. You want them to be happy, you warn them when they do something wrong, without hurting their feelings. And if you care enough, when you find something "wrong" with them, you are willing to fix them.

But how? How are you gonna "fix" someone who are broken SO BADLY? By pointing at them and tell them how fucked up they are as a human being? Or you take time, you learn about them. What makes them uncomfortable and what makes them comfortable. You make them trust you, respect you, admire you in order to fix them.

It takes time to fix people. It may take A HUNDRED YEARS.
The question is... do you really want to fix them for their own good, or your own good?

When you really love someone sincerely, you lower down your guard and let them see the worst in you. You open up yourself and you hide nothing. But if someone choose to leave you for one mistake you did instead of staying for all the things you have done right.. It's them who are not worth it.

"A moment of impact almost a potential for change as ripple effects far beyond what we can predict. Sending some particles crashin' together,and makin' them closer than before."

- Leo Collins

D.W

MAYDAY MAYDAY

"Orang yang mengatakan matahari mendatangkan kebahagiaan adalah orang yang tidak pernah menari di tengah hujan." - unknown writer.

It's May already!
Time flies super fast, or did someone in heaven press fast forward? lols

Life as we know it: things change, people change. You learn from the mistake you have done in the past: it made you a whole lot better, stronger person. I have done a lot of ugly things that I wish I didn't do, but I did it and I have to live on knowing what kind of a person I was.

When you failed once, try again. Failed twice, try harder. Failed thrice.. walk away. If it's meant to be, it's meant to be. There is a fine line between giving up and knowing you have done enough, because sometimes, things are just don't work out as we hope it will.

I have always blaming myself for shits that happened in my life, I look down upon myself and I should have not done that. I have learned how I should value and appreciate myself more but not over do it :) and I think I deserve to have someone who actually gives a shit about me, who doesn't judge me for things that I have done wrong, just to sit and listen to all my craps and make me feel a lot of better. Thank you N and thank you, my supermegabestfriend, S!! cant wait to see you this end of the month! :D

"The truth is, everyone is going to hurt you. You just got to find the ones worth suffering for." 
- unknown.

I am so ready to be happy again. Are you? :)

And here's some pics of me camwhoring. lols

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And this is Soraya, 2 years old little girl. Yaya is my co-worker's niece. Her dad is.. French? Australian?  I forgot le~ and her mom is Indonesian. The bottom line is, YAYA'S SUPER CUTE. FIX: IM GOING TO MARRY A (handsome) CAUCASIAN.

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And im going to share you my May's Playlist!!! :D

Adele - Take it all
" So is it over? is this really it? you're giving up easily, i thought you loved me more than this."

Mr. Little Jeans (RAC Remix) - Rescue Song
" i'm gonna rescue you, so you can rescue me too."

Christina Perri - A Thousand Year
" how can i love, when i am afraid to fall? but watching you stand alone, all of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow"

Rihanna - Farewell
" just can't take the thought of you miles away, somebody is going to miss you, somebody is going to wish you were here, and that somebody is me"

One Republic - Say (All I need is)
I REALLY WANT TO QUOTE ALL THIS GODDAMN LYRICS LAH! go google it!!!

Okay, gotta go now crying to my sleep till my eyes got ugly and nasty . CUPSMWAH. :*
Just kidding, gotta go play L4D killing all zombies and shits!! MUAHAHAHAHAHA

source: here

Love,

D.W