Swagger

They say life is all about choices, well it is true.

I usually went with the flow, I let myself drowning into my imagination, about how things would be as good as I thought it would be. But now I choose to wait and see, if it's meant to be, it's meant to be, right? So there's no need to be hurry.

For the last 4 years I have always put someone else's happiness above mine and I was not truly happy, it didn't make me a better person, but I became someone else; it changed me. I finally can see it, we don't really need someone else to be happy, do we?

Now I am on my own and my life has never been this carefree and delightful before. I feel.. normal again because I am currently not in love with anyone nor have hatred towards someone, this feels fucking good! If I could only stay like this forever~ muahahahaha

Do you know why I could feel this good? because I finally realize that I can actually choose what kind of reaction or impact I want to apply upon myself, regarding the obstacles I am facing and I refuse to be sad, because I know I have a lot of other things to be happy about! My career is doing awesome, my business's growing faster than I could ever imagine, and I have the true friends who always been there for me, and much more to come, I believe! :D

What does not kill you, will only makes you a fighter, does it?
and then I am a blessed fighter.

Anyway, it's August already!
I am going to get through these remaining months of 2012 with SWAG.
I am going to let you see my awesomeness, this video below will probably my first and my last. and I probably will regret this later.. but what the heck, lets live with no limits! hahahahahaha
 

Bitches aint shit and they aint say nothing~ muahahahahahahhahahaa
Did you enjoy my stupidity? I hope you do, cause I do :D

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AUGUST'S PLAYLIST

Dynamic Duo - Guilty
"I'm the one who is guilty. It is all my fault, as i am the convict."

Nicki Minaj - Beez in the Trap (ohh yeahhhhh!!! muahahaha)
" a hundred motherfuckers can't tell me nothing."

Natalia Kills - Heaven
" cause i miss you everyday like they took summer away, like they took colors away, and this grey needs to get the hell way out of me."

The Wanted - Glad you came
" the sun goes down, the stars come out, and all that counts is here and now, my universe would never be the same, i'm glad you came"

Demi Lovato - Fix a Heart
" I tried to sever ties and I ended up with wounds to bind, like you're pouring salt in my cuts."

Ellie Goulding - Light
"I had a heart then but the queen has been over thrown"

Michelle Branch - Breathe
"If I just breathe, let it fill the space between, I'll know everything is alright."

Demi Lovato - Give your heart a break

"After all, you are on your own."


Love,


DW.

Funny People

Is it me or it's true that people are getting much much funnier these days??

I know these bunch of people who are literally loathe each other but they still hang out together. When the other is not around, the other ones talk behind his back, and vice versa. GROW UP, aren't you tired to be pretending all the fucking time?

Life is hard, sweetypie, don't make it any harder yourself. If you don't like someone just because you simply don't like them then don't pretend that you like them and be nice when they around and bitchy when they're not, that is simply annoying and low. LOW.

I know that some how we just don't get along with certain kind of people, we do have rights to make a choice about whom we want to make friends with and whom we choose to not to. BE REAL, that makes things easier and simpler.

Being nice to people we don't like is not being a hypocrite, it's about MANNER.
But pretending to "like" the people we don't like and talk shitty things behind their back is what society calls being a hypocrite.

Are you a hypocrite?
I am. sometimes. not all the time. oh we all do.

 

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JULY's Playlist!!

I currently listen to Lana Del Rey and LeeSsang now. LOVE THEM.

Lana Del Rey - Born to Die
" lost but now I am found.."

Lana Del Rey - Blue Jeans
-all the fucking lyrics!-

Leona Lewis ft. One Republic - Lost Then Found
"why do we say things we cant take back? and why do we miss what we never had?"

Katy Perry - Wide Awake
"I wish I knew then, what I know now. Wouldn't dive in, wouldn't bow down.."

Foster The People - Houdini

Sunday Girl - Love U More

LeeSsang ft Jung In - The Girl Who Can't Break Up and The Guy Who Can't Leave
"understanding each other in our sleepless night, my dreams become your future.."

LeeSsang ft Jung In - LesSang Blues

Kelly Clarkson - Dark Side
" Nobody's a picture perfect, but we're worth it, you know that we're worth it. Will you love me? Even with my dark side?"

and the entire songs from Asura Balbalta :D

I hope this month, things would become much better.
June was a little bit disaster to me cause I paid a lot of money to repair my onyx and now it's DEAD.
I had to buy a new phone and it cost me a fortune T-T.
Oh Lord bless me. and my financial.

Love,

D.W

MAYDAY MAYDAY

"Orang yang mengatakan matahari mendatangkan kebahagiaan adalah orang yang tidak pernah menari di tengah hujan." - unknown writer.

It's May already!
Time flies super fast, or did someone in heaven press fast forward? lols

Life as we know it: things change, people change. You learn from the mistake you have done in the past: it made you a whole lot better, stronger person. I have done a lot of ugly things that I wish I didn't do, but I did it and I have to live on knowing what kind of a person I was.

When you failed once, try again. Failed twice, try harder. Failed thrice.. walk away. If it's meant to be, it's meant to be. There is a fine line between giving up and knowing you have done enough, because sometimes, things are just don't work out as we hope it will.

I have always blaming myself for shits that happened in my life, I look down upon myself and I should have not done that. I have learned how I should value and appreciate myself more but not over do it :) and I think I deserve to have someone who actually gives a shit about me, who doesn't judge me for things that I have done wrong, just to sit and listen to all my craps and make me feel a lot of better. Thank you N and thank you, my supermegabestfriend, S!! cant wait to see you this end of the month! :D

"The truth is, everyone is going to hurt you. You just got to find the ones worth suffering for." 
- unknown.

I am so ready to be happy again. Are you? :)

And here's some pics of me camwhoring. lols

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And this is Soraya, 2 years old little girl. Yaya is my co-worker's niece. Her dad is.. French? Australian?  I forgot le~ and her mom is Indonesian. The bottom line is, YAYA'S SUPER CUTE. FIX: IM GOING TO MARRY A (handsome) CAUCASIAN.

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And im going to share you my May's Playlist!!! :D

Adele - Take it all
" So is it over? is this really it? you're giving up easily, i thought you loved me more than this."

Mr. Little Jeans (RAC Remix) - Rescue Song
" i'm gonna rescue you, so you can rescue me too."

Christina Perri - A Thousand Year
" how can i love, when i am afraid to fall? but watching you stand alone, all of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow"

Rihanna - Farewell
" just can't take the thought of you miles away, somebody is going to miss you, somebody is going to wish you were here, and that somebody is me"

One Republic - Say (All I need is)
I REALLY WANT TO QUOTE ALL THIS GODDAMN LYRICS LAH! go google it!!!

Okay, gotta go now crying to my sleep till my eyes got ugly and nasty . CUPSMWAH. :*
Just kidding, gotta go play L4D killing all zombies and shits!! MUAHAHAHAHAHA

source: here

Love,

D.W