The Free Fall

When you admire someone, you want them to feel comfortable whenever you are around them. You make sure that they won't feel distracted by your presence, your nonsense, and your imperfections, so you hide your stupidity cause you're afraid you're going to scare them away. You just want them to feel the same way as you do.

When you respect someone, you look up to them, you want to be just like them one day. Everything they do inspires you and prove that all this time you have got the wrong idea about something: they change the way you think.

Remember how respect is earned, not given. It is not something that fall from the sky, freely.

When you truly care about someone, you want the best for them. You want them to be happy, you warn them when they do something wrong, without hurting their feelings. And if you care enough, when you find something "wrong" with them, you are willing to fix them.

But how? How are you gonna "fix" someone who are broken SO BADLY? By pointing at them and tell them how fucked up they are as a human being? Or you take time, you learn about them. What makes them uncomfortable and what makes them comfortable. You make them trust you, respect you, admire you in order to fix them.

It takes time to fix people. It may take A HUNDRED YEARS.
The question is... do you really want to fix them for their own good, or your own good?

When you really love someone sincerely, you lower down your guard and let them see the worst in you. You open up yourself and you hide nothing. But if someone choose to leave you for one mistake you did instead of staying for all the things you have done right.. It's them who are not worth it.

"A moment of impact almost a potential for change as ripple effects far beyond what we can predict. Sending some particles crashin' together,and makin' them closer than before."

- Leo Collins

D.W

Chapter XXIII : The Long Weekend

I went to a Korean Festival held by one of a hospitality college in Bogor last Saturday.  Was it good? HELL NO. I felt like a stupid adult young lady trapped in a bunch students; starting from primary to college/uni student whom are crazily in love with their Korean idol. I was a student 2 years ago. Fuck, I'm getting older!!!

How would I know about this festival? My older sister.
So my mom, my sister, my brother, and his wife went to Bogor basically for wasting our money for nothing. We paid 15.000 rupiahs/ person for the entrance and 5000rupiahs/food vouchers.
The food? Quite.. aw.. awful!!!

We finally ended up snacking and decided to leave after 25 minutes and we went to a MP (Macaroni Panggang/ Baked Macaroni) restaurant to have a REAL beautiful lunch with the REAL DELICIOUS food. YUM! Good food makes me happy!!

I ordered a tenderloin steak as my main course, Tiramisu Cake as my dessert, and Bintang Beer mixed with Sprite as my drink. and I did a lot of cam whoring in the car. muahahaha

Tenderloin Beef Steak served with boiled vegie and plain croquette

Beer Bintang mixed with SPRITE

AMAZING TIRAMISU CAKE

EXECUTED AWESOME TIRAMISU CAKE

On Sunday, my mom asked me to accompany her to a wedding of her primary school friend's daughter.
I hate wearing high heels and I hate the fact that I had to queue for my own food.. I was queuing up for about 25 minutes and when I am about to reach the front line, the chef told us that the sushi were finish. I WAS DAMN MAD!!!

And then when I was queuing for an unbelievably delicious warm brownies with ice cream on top of it, I saw someone throw away a beautiful-pink-roasted prawn.. I LOVE PRAWN, I am a prawn eater and I feel so sad when people wasting prawns!!! lol okay I know I am too much on this one.

I swear there will be no queuing on my *ehem* wedding party. If you think about it, it is quite rude to let your guests eating while standing. They come to celebrate your happy moment and yet they give you some ang pao lor.  I will set a table and chair for each one of my guests and I will make sure all of them got enough food and they got to pick what they want to eat! awesome, right??
And I'm planning to invite only close family and REAL best friends. If you loathe me and I loathe you too, you don't have to come, I wont bother to invite you either. LOLS.

This means if I invited you to my AWESOME wedding, you are at least a good friend for me :)
Am I getting married??  Not in 6-8 years, so I guess you still have enough time to make friends with me. muahahahaha

peace out, bitches!

"Stop holding on to what hurts and make room for what feels good." -@idillionaire




Love,


D.W

MAYDAY MAYDAY

"Orang yang mengatakan matahari mendatangkan kebahagiaan adalah orang yang tidak pernah menari di tengah hujan." - unknown writer.

It's May already!
Time flies super fast, or did someone in heaven press fast forward? lols

Life as we know it: things change, people change. You learn from the mistake you have done in the past: it made you a whole lot better, stronger person. I have done a lot of ugly things that I wish I didn't do, but I did it and I have to live on knowing what kind of a person I was.

When you failed once, try again. Failed twice, try harder. Failed thrice.. walk away. If it's meant to be, it's meant to be. There is a fine line between giving up and knowing you have done enough, because sometimes, things are just don't work out as we hope it will.

I have always blaming myself for shits that happened in my life, I look down upon myself and I should have not done that. I have learned how I should value and appreciate myself more but not over do it :) and I think I deserve to have someone who actually gives a shit about me, who doesn't judge me for things that I have done wrong, just to sit and listen to all my craps and make me feel a lot of better. Thank you N and thank you, my supermegabestfriend, S!! cant wait to see you this end of the month! :D

"The truth is, everyone is going to hurt you. You just got to find the ones worth suffering for." 
- unknown.

I am so ready to be happy again. Are you? :)

And here's some pics of me camwhoring. lols

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And this is Soraya, 2 years old little girl. Yaya is my co-worker's niece. Her dad is.. French? Australian?  I forgot le~ and her mom is Indonesian. The bottom line is, YAYA'S SUPER CUTE. FIX: IM GOING TO MARRY A (handsome) CAUCASIAN.

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And im going to share you my May's Playlist!!! :D

Adele - Take it all
" So is it over? is this really it? you're giving up easily, i thought you loved me more than this."

Mr. Little Jeans (RAC Remix) - Rescue Song
" i'm gonna rescue you, so you can rescue me too."

Christina Perri - A Thousand Year
" how can i love, when i am afraid to fall? but watching you stand alone, all of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow"

Rihanna - Farewell
" just can't take the thought of you miles away, somebody is going to miss you, somebody is going to wish you were here, and that somebody is me"

One Republic - Say (All I need is)
I REALLY WANT TO QUOTE ALL THIS GODDAMN LYRICS LAH! go google it!!!

Okay, gotta go now crying to my sleep till my eyes got ugly and nasty . CUPSMWAH. :*
Just kidding, gotta go play L4D killing all zombies and shits!! MUAHAHAHAHAHA

source: here

Love,

D.W

Chapter XXII: The Client List

Have you heard about "the Client List" before?

look at her boobies!!! LOLS

The Client List is a movie about an undercover prostitute being exposed and arrested by the police. In order to reduced the sentence she faced, she decided to testifying against the clients she has served so she made "the client list" but the list was never released to the media and the names are remain unknown. She is a married woman and has 2 children and she was exposed to the media.

I am not going to talk about this movie, what I am going to talk about is.. how it really happened in Singapore! Yes, 48 men were charged for underage-prostitution. And one of those 48 men, is a 28 years old Indonesian who are going to be married this June. How do I know about this? 

Because Singaporean media released "the client list" of this fucking stupid underage girl with their full name, age, and their real job on the newspaper and all over the internet. FUCKING INSANE !!

This stupid underage girl (now 20 years old) LIED about her age to the "agency" she previously works for and now she is charging all of her clients??? what the heck happened to this girl's brain? She lied to the agency and the clients but she charged them with underage-prostitute. I don't know clearly why she gave the list to the police, but if it's the same as the movie; to reduce her sentences, she is totally out of her mind.

Don't get me wrong, I DO AGAINST underage prostitution, but this one is different! She is willingly work as one! No one forced her to work as an underage prostitute, not her agency, not her clients but herself. And all these 48 men are totally guilty for prostitution, but to publish their full name in media is way out of the line. They did not know that the girl they hired is underage.

None of these 48 men nor the stupid underage girl is a victim, the real victims are those 48 men's family; their parents, wives, children, and close friends. And what make it more unfair is, the real name of the former underage prostitute is remain unknown.

See the difference???
In the movie, those men on the client list is remain unknown while the identity of the prostitute is exposed. In Singapore, its the opposite way, those men's real identities are exposed and the prostitute's identity remain unknown.

Source:

Asian Correspondent : 48 Charged as Underage Prostitution Scandal Grips Singapore
Bloomberg: Singapore Charges 48 in Underage Prostitution Scandal