Season Greetings

Hello peeps, or anyone out there who really loves to read my blog. I love you. No, seriously.. Have I ever told you guys that I really appreciate you guys to use a bit of your precious time for reading my blog? I made a season greetings for my loved ones: friends, families, and for those.. who are used to be special.. and for you. :")




So I spent my Christmas Holidays in Bali with my sister ACMW. She currently lives there and working as a hotelier~ I got so lucky, you know?! I have been telling myself that I am a blessed one and I guess the mantra works XD

Why am I so lucky? Cause I got to stay at Sing Ken Ken Boutique Hotel for 5 days/4nights FOR FREE. Well, SKK is a hotel where my sister works, but the kind-hearted owner told my sister to stay at the hotel with me to try the new rooms on the first floor. And I really enjoyed my stay here lah~ not because it was free, but because of the experiences that I got! The rooms were designed beautifully, they used a high quality items to build the room, and the services are excellent. I felt like I was a superstar leh. kekekekekekkee :p

And what I love the most is.... THEIR FOOD! Sing Ken Ken has 2 restaurants, D'6 Bistro on the ground floor and Sunset Terrace on the top floor but Sunset Terrace is currently still in a progress.
I ate at D'6 Bistro about 4times, and every dish I ordered is DELICIOUS!

On the first day, my sis took me to a nice Italian restaurant near the hotel, just across the beach.

first dinner in bali!

First breakfast in Bali at D'6 Bistro. The Chicken Satays were amazing!

Sun burned bacon. lols

me and my sis had lunch at the beach.

me and the gingerbread house :D

Had a lunch at the beach, the deck's seafood platter was awesome!

After spending 3days playing at the beach and ate only at the nearest restaurants from my sis's hotel, She finally took me to Biku Restaurant. A famous restaurant belongs to Happy Salma, an Indonesian actress, located at PetiTenget, Bali. They had a live music, a handsome Latin guy who both sings and plays guitar very well. HE IS SO HANDSOME. *ahem*

My lovely Sister at BIKU

me :) at BIKU

I ordered a Grilled Fish, and my dessert was a TRIO dessert, and my sis ordered the Carrot Cake as her dessert

After that, we decided to go to the Beach Walk, a mall located near Kuta Beach. I bought a very cute dress at New Look, 50% Discount, dude! HALF PRICE OH YEAH. People in Bali never really thought that I am Indonesian, they either thought that I was Korean or Japanese. lols But the bad thing was they gave me the INTERNATIONAL TOURIST's price which is amazingly expensive. -_-

I went to the church on Xmas Eve with my sister and her friend. And we spent Christmas Day by... SHOPPING ALL DAY LONG. muahahahahahaha. 

me at the Beach Walk

Merry Christmas :)

My sis, me, and Santa!

Me at the Top Floor of SKK Boutique Hotel

me, signing off from Bali <3

My greatest love turned out to be the one who hurt me the most,and my alleged super mega best friend turned to be the biggest joke in my whole life.

I have lost, I have been hurt, but I am still alive. 

And I am so ready for 2013.

Are you?

I wish you a happy happy new year, may 2013 will be much much better than 2012.

Love,

DW

There it goes..

I never have respects for those men who hit women, regardless of the reason WHY.
Especially when a grown up man slap his little sister as hard as he could until her cheeks swell, her lips bleed, and caused her a terrible headache that lasted for 2 days. What an honored man he is, yeah?

A person need to be well respected if she/he wants to be heard. If you can't even earn other people's respect then how you expect them to listen to you??? And remember how respect is EARNED, it is not something you have automatically just because you happened to be an elder sibling. Being born as an elder brother/sister doesn't mean that you can fucking dictate your younger siblings like they don't have their own perspective. 

And remember how action speaks louder than words. If your asshole younger siblings don't want to listen to your words, you should be the living example for them, a good one of course. Maybe you are not such a good living example of an elder sibling so that might be the reason why your younger sibling REFUSES to follow your advice lah!! They maybe have these thoughts like: "MEH! koko can't even control his ugly temper then why I have to respect this asshole? WHY AH? Always beat me one lah, his younger sister, when we have an argument. why can't he argue like a normal adult without violence ar??"

People have their own will and thoughts, you can't force them to follow your will. I mean of course you can give your piece of thoughts when you are ASKED and when you gave your words but they don't agree with you, you don't have any rights to be mad! Who died and made you a King of Everything?

For example, Me, myself, I have always been a stubborn human being, probably since I was still in my mother's womb. I don't like when people KEEP telling me to do. I HATE IT. It is not that I don't need other people's advice, on the contrary, I always seeks advices from my loved ones when I have some problems for example like if I got pregnant but I don't have any idea about who the father is, but surely I don't need an advice about how to eat a fucking boiled crab. I surely can eat my boiled crab in any kind of ways that I want, why? FUCK YOU that's why!

No lah, just kidding :p
I mean when it comes to small unimportant matters like: "how to dig your nose in a right way" or "how many times you have to breathe in a day"... Do you really have to give an advice about that? really?

There it goes my very last respect for this so called "honorable and righteous man".

My Thing.

"Every now and then, the stars align. Boy and girl meet by the great design. Could it be that you and me, are the lucky ones?" - Lucky Ones, Lana Del Rey

Ratna, Miranti, and I went for a very late supper few days ago. While we were waiting for their food to come (I hardly refused to eat but they decided that I HAVE to eat as well) ,we had a little chat about love, which frankly speaking, I had enough of, and I just figured out my thing.

Miranti and Ratna have the same way of "choosing" what kind of male they want to be their man, while I kind of.. the opposite way. I could say that they are picky, WHICH IS GOOD. I mean, we even try to put on the shoes that we like and try to walk on it, before we make a purchase. We double check the leather, the stitches, and the color etc, making sure they are perfect, so why wouldn't we be EXTRA picky about something so intimate and important like "choosing a lover"?

I have to admit that I have never been so picky as a woman, NOT EVEN ONCE. It's not that I want to be in a relationship SO BADLY, but it is more like me being so grateful that someone whom I love, loves me back. And I believe I have to be more picky about choosing someone to love from now on. lols.

I used to think that "why would a guy likes a girl like me? ME?? GAK ADA CEWEK LAIN APAH?". But hey, people have been telling me that I am pretty (by people i mean my parents, sister, and close friends. LOLS) and I always give my best, pretty much at every aspects in my life, so yeah, I think my thing is that I AM SO GOOD AT LOVING PEOPLE. *blushing*

Enough with the shitty thing called love, IM OUTTA HEREE.

Love, uh i mean, CHEERS!! :D

DW

Hallo-ween.

"I called it a quit because, loving someone who does not love you as much as you do love them is fucking exhausting. I did not give up but I have reached the point where I have to let it go, because it brought the worst in me." -DW


Happy Eid Ul-Adha for those who celebrate it and HAPPY HALLOWEEN! :3

HAPPY HALLOWEEN

I never celebrate halloween in my whole life. WHY? because it is not part of my culture and from my POV, (most of them) girls are abusing Halloween for dressing like a slut. Halloween suppose to be creepy, right? Not to make the men horny. LOLS. But if I had such a hot and sexy body I would wear those sexy tiny little outfits too. >:)

This year Halloween or October 31st 2012 is my last day in OMC. Yes, I quit my job, I feel like it is time for me to get out from my comfort zone. I would like to meet new people and go to the new places. So, I started to looking for a new job 3 weeks ago. I sent my CV and portfolio to precisely 6 agencies on the first day and to other 11 agencies on the next day. Got only 3 interview invitations in total, to be honest I FELT HOPELESS.

But there was this one company that caught my eyes on them. Their vacancy ads was soo creative and different from the others. And the company was in my number one list! They called me the next day after I sent my application and invited me for an interview. I WAS SOOO HAPPY AND EXCITED! XD. 3 days after the interview they sent me the offer to be their Associate Art Director, when they were originally seek for a Senior Graphic Designer. Feel fucking awesome when people really appreciate your work and your talent. So I accepted their offer and I feel blessed! 0:)

I hope that I won't disappoint them :p
yeayyyy! Hope everything runs smoothly!

I love my co-workers at OMC. They are already like a family to me.. Would like to thank them all for the warm and great hospitality during my stay there. I am sad that I have to leave them, but hey, a goodbye is just another new Hello, right? :)

"who seeks shall find." - Sophocles.


Love,

DW

Dirty Little Secret(s) Part I

BEHOLD, my fellow graphic designers or those students who are currently studying visual communication. I want to share some short cuts and good tips for you :)

For those who are still in college/ uni, if you are thinking that you are going through hell, well let's say that loe cuma baru aja sampe  di depan gerbangnya neraka. hahahahahahaha *keselek*. Cause once you have start working as a professional GD, things are getting worse than when you were still in school.

You are going to face the real clients, real projects, and of course you have bigger responsibility because people pay you for your artwork. Doesn't it sounds scary? well, it is. BUT, if you prepared yourself, you shouldn't be afraid of anything, because everything needs a process. Apalagi dunia design itu, learning by doing.

My tips on getting a job:

1. PREPARE AN AWESOME PORTFOLIO.

You will need an awesome portfolio to amaze your future employer. Ga usah masukin banyak2 project, karena pas interview pun they barely have time to check all your artworks. Cukup masukin project2 yang menurut loe bagus dan misalkan yang udah di publish beneran (kalo ada). 10-15 projects juga udh oke.

2. SEND YOUR CV AND PORTFOLIO TO LOTS OF DIFFERENT AGENCIES

Be confident. :) Put aside the negative thinking like : "Hell no, I will not get this job." JUST TRY. You have nothing to lose. I sent my application to be an Art Director when I was still 19 years old and viola, I got it. I never thought they want to hire me but hey, you will never know if you don't try, rite? :))

3. WHEN THEY CALL YOU FOR AN INTERVIEW...

Congrats! hahaha means your portfolio berhasil bikin mereka tertarik B) You may want to design and print your own name card! Print out your portfolio and CV, gave them a copy of your CV would be nice. Give them a QUICK review of your portfolio, always smile, and relax! It is okay for you to ask them if you don't understand about the regulations.

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GOODLUCK YAH JOB HUNTINGNYAHHH. I hope my tips will help you :)
Note that these tips are based on my personal experiences.
I will share my other dirtier little secrets for my fellow graphic designers, SOON.
STAY TUNE FOR THE DIRTY LITTLE SECRET(S) PART II !!!! :D

My Portfolio VolumeIII's cover

Divider Design

Project preview's Design.

Love,

DW

BLACK JACK.

"Aku.. aku sekarang umur 21 loh"
"terus gueh harus bilang WOW sambil koprol gituh?"

Goodbye twenty, hello twenty first!!! 
Cheers to more awesomeness and wrinkles to come...!!!

I would like to thank God, for all His blessing and love. I want to be a person who's always be grateful, down to earth, kind, full of patience and love, forgiving, wise, mature, strong, and more importantly be that person who always fear GOD and obey His words.

I want to be that passionate young woman who give her 100% in everything she does in her life, I want to be a good graphic designer whose never tired of learning and growing, I want to be a successful business woman whose able to make her parents proud and repay all the kindness, love, and care that they have been giving her for the past twenty one years.. I want to be able to eat as much as I want and won't get fat at all, because my love for good foods is as big as the sun. ;p

I want to be the blessed one who inspires other people. I want to be a very good friend whose always there for all my best friends when they need me. And above all, I want to be a person with great strength in dealing with any kind of obstacles along my way and always have faith that things will be (eventually) okay! :) AMEN TO ALL THESE WORDS.

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Tahun lalu mungkin adalah ultah TERBURUK, bahkan lebih buruk dari ultah Sweet Seventeen gue dimana gue baru pindah ke Singapore, jauh dari orang tua dan orang-orang yang gue sayang. Tahun lalu bahkan bokap gue sendiri enggak ngucapin ultah ke gue. Dan orang yang gue sayang kagak nyiapin apa-apa buat gue, sedangkan pas dia ultah gue ngumpulin gaji gue buat beliin dia jam tangan yang dia mau. Love sucks, huh? engga sih, Dia yang sucks.

Tapi ulang tahun gue yang tahun ini, probably was the BEST BIRTHDAY EVER!
I feel loved and it feels fuckin good to be loved!!! :D

Jadiii... di usia 21 ini, gue memang merasa gue lebih dewasa, lebih bisa nahan emosi, walaupun kemarin ini sempet melakukan hal-hal yang super bodoh!! hahahaha. Pas tanggal 3, dimana gue resmi bisa mabok-mabokan, gue kerja seperti biasa. Enggak ngeluh seperti tahun-tahun sebelumnya where I demanded a day off on my birthday. childish banget yah?? ITCCHHHHHH. *kibas rambut*

Pas jam 12 malemnya my lovely mom and my jelly surprised me with a lovely birthday cake while I was working on Monokrom's projects. Padahal sebelomnya mama gue bilang "Dew.. tahun ini mamah gak beliin kueh yahhh.. bosen gitu-gitu ajahhhhh."

MY WISH: semoga gue cepet kaya dan bisa banggain mamipapihhh :*

Terus sorenya gue naek taksi macet2 ke Kelapa Gading karena Didi bilang sama gue ada meeting sama client. To be honest sempet kepikiran sih, masa gue lagi ulang tahun gak ada apa-apa sama sekali, malah kerja. Tapi ya udah juga sih, taon depan juga ulang tahun lagi. HAHAHAHAHA.

LALU LALU... AKU... AKU DI SURPRISE-IN!

Ternyata Didi, Dodo, Ratna, Chenky, bersekongkol bikin gue nunggu di mol SEJEM, setelah gue macet-macetan kesanahhh. Bilangnya mereka kejebak macet, padahal udah di MKG juga. Mereka beliin gue Kue coklat super yummy di Manon dan belinn gue kado tas Zara yang cocok banget sama kepribadian gueh : PREMAN PETOJO. Terus, Antie sempet2in dateng padahal dia belomm fitt! Gue baru tau dia sakit maag akut D: GET WELL SOON ANTIE SAYANG :*

Thank you banget loh semuanyaaa!!! Buat Ratna, my sweet best friend, I love you full. I learn how to be a good person and good friend from you, na. Buat Antie yang udah bela2in datengg makasih sayang. Buat didi, dodo, chenky.. maacih udh suprisein akuhhh. Buat Dian si cadel lucuuu, terus Ivonne cantikss yang baru menjejakan kakinya di dunia profesional grafik desain *TSAAHHH* dan for the last but not least, Tiara! Si kecil yang innocent and super honest. Thank you guys, kalian bikin ulang tahun gue kali ini LEBIH BERARTI dari tahun2 sebelumnya. :D

Makasih juga buat NINA BURHAN! Veina sayang, Rika dan Lala yang kasih gue ban pinggang Zara yang sama persis kayak tas yang dikasih dari temen2 kuliah gue. hahahahahaha
Dan terima kasih buat semuanya yang udah wishing me a happy birthday. :)

KECUP BASAH SEMUAHNYA. MUACH. :* :* :*

HAPPY BDAY DEWI CANTIK. :D

I love being 21, single, and I have some goodnews that I will reveal soon.

GOD is GOOD!!!! 

Love,

DW

the Feet of a Runner

UGLY FOOT NAILS

"ciyus wie ini kaki lo? miapah?"
"mi kangkung"

Hahahaha. jelek yah kaki gue?? ini gara2 gue udh rutin running sejak awal tahun ini. Awal tujuannya adalah supaya gue sehat, karena 2 tahun yang lalu pas gue kena asthma attack di kampus dan masup UGD di SGH (Singapore General Hospital), baru ketawan kalo my heart beats way too fast. Kalo begitu terus bisa2 gue mati muda kena cardiac arrest -_-

Atas dasar ingin hidup panjang dan sehat selalu, gue putuskan untuk menata kebiasaan makan gue supaya lebih sehat lagi. Mulai dari awal tahun ini asupan sayur2an gue tingkatkan dengan cara mengganti nasi putih ke nasi merah, lalu gue ganti dengan fresh salad sebagai pengganti nasi.

Berat gue awalnya 67 kilo ( gue berasa kayak ibu2 habis ngelahirin -_-) , setelah hampir 9 bulan mencoba menerapkan gaya hidup sehat, turun ke 59 kilo. Lama yah turunnya? hahaha ya karena I did it the healthy way, no diet pills!

Tapi gue ga yang strict gimana banget, kalo lg weekend dan pergi dinner bareng keluarga ya gue selow2 aja ikutan makan nasi.. yang penting adalah asupan nasi dan karbohidrat lain yang berlebih gue kurangin. Tapi gue tetep kagak bisa lepas dari godaan INDOMIE. :9 I believe Indomie was sent from Heaven... LOLS Kalo lo mau diet turun cepet, lo jauhin mie2 instant, karbohidrat, air dingin, makanan yg digoreng2 dan OLAH RAGA.

Pertama2nya gue rutin cardio exercise karena mau hidup sehat, lama-lama hal ini menjadi benar-benar pelarian gue dari masalah, kalo lagi banyak pikiran, I literally run from them.
Dulu, pas jaman SMA, disuruh jogging 30 menit aja gue udah mau mati rasanya. Sekarang, running has became the part of me, I finally has the right to say that i am a... Runner. :)

Run makes me happy but I have to say my life has been a constant battle between sinful but heavenly foods and a sexy, toned body.. and running seems to be the best answer for this never-ending-battle. HAHAHAHA.

Lets life happy and healthy! :D




LOVE,

D

The Naked Truth

The truth is.. losing you has taught me so many things, it changed me to be the person I have always wanted to be. I am sorry that I wasn't good enough for you to stay and fight for the things and hopes we believed in. I am sorry that I wasn't able to be someone you expected me to be, I am terribly sorry.

The truth is.. I will always embracing our memories together, it brings the warmth back to my heart. I wish you happiness, prosperity, and all the goodness in life. And don't forget that baby you are one of a kind.  I wasn't ready to say goodbye but here I am, finding myself much much happier, stronger, more contained than ever when I was still with you. 

Lets live happily, but separately. 

To fall in love and to be broken hearted.

To forgive and to forget.

To remember and to let go.

To learn and to understand.

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Oh enough the melodramatic SHITs.. LOLS. Do you miss me?? ahahaha

I cut my hair recently! I just came to the hair salon and was thinking "I'm cutting all these bitches off! "

And the funny thing is the hair dresser thought that I was a Japanese. and here's our conversation before he cut my hair.

HD : Kamu... Orang jepang yah??

ME :  Saya.. orang jakarta mas.

HD : ALHAMDULILAH YRA. *lega*

And here I am with my new hair do:

What do you think???? And here is me with the long long hair...

Which one do you think is better for me? I love my long hair but I HATE BLOW DRYING IT.

It took SO LONG for my long hair to dry. hahaha so I CUT IT OFF. muwahahahahaha

I love my new hair though! :)

"when there's a will, there's a way!"

Love,

DW

LACE boutique

LACE BOUTIQUE

Hello beautiful ladies, let me introduce you to one of my favorite online boutiques, LACE BOUTIQUE is not another-ordinary online boutique. Every piece of the clothing is made from selected fabrics and tailored to perfection!

LACE BOUTIQUE has just release their first collection and you can check their collection HERE.

Me, myself bought 3 pieces from their first collection as I am amazed by their design and quality. Remember ladies, you get what you pay, so don't you worry about being disappointed, cause YOU WONT! :D And here is the preview of which pieces I purchased from them:

SCARLET TOP | IDR 185

SCARLET TOP (PINK) | IDR 185

PAPERDOLL DRESS | IDR285

PAPERDOLL DRESS  | IDR285

BEAUTIFUL aren't they??? :3 I am addicted to LACE BOUTIQUE pieces and I WANT MORE!

I can't wait for their second collection and you better hurry up to check on their Facebook page : LACEstoreishere before they are all sold out!! :D

HAPPY SHOPPING LADIES!!! :*

Love,

DW

FAB LANE.

Udah lama banget nitch ga ngeblog pake bahasa nenek moyang.
Lega banget rasanya jari2 tambun ini nari2 diatas keyboard tanpa harus bolak - balik ke Google Translate atau sekedar ngecek grammar di Google, dan Oxford Pocket Dictionary butut gue.

Tapi kadang-kadang kalo jiwa kebulean gue lagi keluar, gue lebih nyaman ngeblog pake bahasa inggeris. *kibas rambut*

Pernah gak lo berasa super cape, tapi lo ga bisa tidur ?
Dan itu bikin lo pengen nangis kejer buat luapin semua kecapean lo? Bengong dikit, mata berair. Lengah dikit, tau-tau lo lagi bengong. *bengongception*

Hidup gue sekarang semacam perempuan gila kerja. Apalagi sejak Monokrom resmi jalan dan bikin gue otomatis jadi Art Director di 2 design agencies sekaligus. Bangga? Tentunya. Cape? BANGET. Abis selesai ngantor di Cideng, gue masih harus ke PIK, seminggu 3x kesana. Dan kalo gue ga ke PIK, gue bawa pulang kerjaan ke rumah, pulang ngantor tidur bentar, lanjut kerja lagi. Nge-date? Boro-boro, gue sering banget malem mingguan sama laptop, terus pulang ke rumah bercumbu sama ranjang gue.

Semuanya gue jalanin dengan ikhlas, gue seneng dikasih kepercayaan sama Tuhan buat punya 2 tanggung jawab yang berbeda, artinya Tuhan taulah kalo gue mampu. Banyak yang mau cari kerjaan susah banget, ini gue malah ada 2. Harusnya gue seneng, ya kan?

Tapi ada titik dimana gue super duper merasa minder dan gak percaya diri bahwa gue mampu ngejalanin ini semua. Gue pernah ada kepikiran pengen mundur dari either Octis atau Monokrom karena gue takut banget ngecewain orang dan gue ga bisa ngasih apa yang mereka harepin dari gue. Tapi gue ga mau nyerah gitu aja, i am a fighter and i refuse to be a quitter.

Bukan berarti gue benci sama kerjaan gue, gue cinta banget sama kerjaan gue. Gue bisa liat diri gue sampe 40 tahun ke depan tetep bergelut di bidang graphic design tanpa bosen sedikit pun, I feel like I was born to be an awesome graphic designer. Tapi yah gitu... gue suka lost my grip dan gue bisa berubah dalam sekejap dari dewi yang kuat ke dewi yang super manja ples cengeng. -____-"

Untungnya gue punya nyokap yang bener-bener bisa jadi pelipur lara gue *halah*
Dipeluk dia, semua rasa khawatir, ketakutan akan masa depan, bayangan masa lalu, semuanya pupus dalam sekejap~ She must be some kind of a fairy godmother or sumthin. She is truly magical...

ANYWAY~
Blog gue udah sampe 3600views.. walopun gue jarang ngeblog dan bru setaonan ini aktif ngeblog, gue cuma mau bilang thank you for reading my blog! dan semoga lo ga bosen2 mampir di blog gue hehehe.

All is well.

Love,

Dewi

Swagger

They say life is all about choices, well it is true.

I usually went with the flow, I let myself drowning into my imagination, about how things would be as good as I thought it would be. But now I choose to wait and see, if it's meant to be, it's meant to be, right? So there's no need to be hurry.

For the last 4 years I have always put someone else's happiness above mine and I was not truly happy, it didn't make me a better person, but I became someone else; it changed me. I finally can see it, we don't really need someone else to be happy, do we?

Now I am on my own and my life has never been this carefree and delightful before. I feel.. normal again because I am currently not in love with anyone nor have hatred towards someone, this feels fucking good! If I could only stay like this forever~ muahahahaha

Do you know why I could feel this good? because I finally realize that I can actually choose what kind of reaction or impact I want to apply upon myself, regarding the obstacles I am facing and I refuse to be sad, because I know I have a lot of other things to be happy about! My career is doing awesome, my business's growing faster than I could ever imagine, and I have the true friends who always been there for me, and much more to come, I believe! :D

What does not kill you, will only makes you a fighter, does it?
and then I am a blessed fighter.

Anyway, it's August already!
I am going to get through these remaining months of 2012 with SWAG.
I am going to let you see my awesomeness, this video below will probably my first and my last. and I probably will regret this later.. but what the heck, lets live with no limits! hahahahahaha
 

Bitches aint shit and they aint say nothing~ muahahahahahahhahahaa
Did you enjoy my stupidity? I hope you do, cause I do :D

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AUGUST'S PLAYLIST

Dynamic Duo - Guilty
"I'm the one who is guilty. It is all my fault, as i am the convict."

Nicki Minaj - Beez in the Trap (ohh yeahhhhh!!! muahahaha)
" a hundred motherfuckers can't tell me nothing."

Natalia Kills - Heaven
" cause i miss you everyday like they took summer away, like they took colors away, and this grey needs to get the hell way out of me."

The Wanted - Glad you came
" the sun goes down, the stars come out, and all that counts is here and now, my universe would never be the same, i'm glad you came"

Demi Lovato - Fix a Heart
" I tried to sever ties and I ended up with wounds to bind, like you're pouring salt in my cuts."

Ellie Goulding - Light
"I had a heart then but the queen has been over thrown"

Michelle Branch - Breathe
"If I just breathe, let it fill the space between, I'll know everything is alright."

Demi Lovato - Give your heart a break

"After all, you are on your own."


Love,


DW.

A fool and a Tough one.

I always believe that basically, people are kind, but I should never forget on how mean and cruel human being can be sometimes. I had this thought; Why do people that I believe will never hurt me, always ended up being the ones who hurt me the most? Because I let them, I gave them a chance to hurt me. I was too naive to have this thought on how they will never ever hurt me but they just proved me wrong, they always reminded me on how I should never trust people that easily, a real prove on how kind and honest human being have been decreasing from time to time.

There was an ugly matter happened to me few days ago, it taught me a lot of things.
How I should never abandon what my brain says, rather than listening only to what my stupid-naive heart says.
How I should never lower down my guard to people who don't deserve it.
How I should respect myself more, value myself rightly.
I was a fool. I admit that.
Time to get on a higher level, wie!

People have reasons behind every mistake they did, oh hell yes they do.
But it doesn't mean its okay to make mistake, especially when you could hurt someone else's feelings.
What an ignorant bastard of you, to think it is okay to hurt people's feelings just because you "have your reasons"???
If I had my reasons to stab you in the eyes, does that mean it is okay to do so??? enggak kan?

Hating people is exhausting. It really is.. That's why I decided to stop give a fuck about those people who don't even deserve my care.
Sometimes, it is easier to just forgive and forget people's mistake, because what they did is too hurtful.
But I can't just forget what people have done to me. NEVER. I might forgive them but I will never forget. I'm not planning on any revenge or getting even, I believe karma will bite them back and if I was lucky enough, God will let me see how they taste their own medicine.

Love is kind... It's true. When you got hurt by someone and you forgive them instead; you bring out the best in you and you are not mad at them however, you tried to understand their reasons on why they hurt you. You accept it sincerely and you wish them the best, you wish that they will never be treated just like the way they treated you... That's simply.. awesome right? :)

The difference between a fool and a tough people is.. a fool will understand and give you another chance, tough people will understand and will never give you a chance to hurt them ever again.

I made mistakes and I learned from them.
I have been hurt but I'm alive.
I forgive and I never forget.

I am now on a new higher level and stronger than ever. BRING IT ON! seriously.

Hey anyway~
These are a bunch of photo of Audric and me cam-whoring. HE IS DAMN CUTE I WANT HIM TO BE MY NEW BOYFRIEND, which is impossible cause I'm 19 years old older than him. Muahahaha.

Don't you just love him?? Audric is so smart, he speaks 3 languages! Chinese, English, and of course Bahasa Indonesia. I have to learn speak and write in Chinese too. Immediately. 

Now I feel.. happy and carefree. Life seems to be more delightful, no more serious worries~

I am happy, you should be happy too! :)

"Tough times never last, but tough people do" -
Dr. Robert Schuller.

Love,

D.W